Welcome back! And thank you for joining me once again as I share more of my personal story around breaking through and releasing fear. I have been talking to you about my first journey in releasing fear. I learned how to describe what I did here long after I did it. As I was so desperate I plowed through, messed it all up, and fell forward in my journey to eventually make it past the hurdle and keep the weight off for 3 years now.
This is part of the power of what I am sharing. For many years I struggled with my weight. I went up and down and up and up and down and up. I’m sure most of you know someone that has done that with their weight loss…. Well for me, it was because I was not changing the reason, I was just changing the symptom.
I also described in greater detail the moment of the memory. Now, keep in mind that this memory was from a 13 year old girl. That little girl didn’t understand what was happening in her life, why her dad was gone, why here mom was so sad, and why her life was so different then it was when she left Connecticut. She just understood that she was hungry, there was no food, and she couldn’t tell her mom because it would upset mom more. She was tired of seeing her mom cry and couldn’t bear doing it to her, so the little girl kept quiet.
That memory caused over two decades of weight trouble and anxiety and fear around food.
I’ve often hear people say they ‘love food’, I always cring when I hear that. Because that’s what happened to me. I loved it so much I was addicted to it. And no matter what I did, what I ate, or how hard I tried, I couldn’t stop. When I would get to that point where I was full, I would keep eating. That little 13 year old girl would pop up and say ‘you don’t know when you will have more, you better eat it’, or ‘no more is coming’, amoung others that were equally damaging and hurtful. Sometimes it was just the feeling of not know if there was going to be anymore food. The feeling of not knowing what to do and the fear that it would go on forever.
Now, please hear me on this part as it was a critical part to my releasing the fear and one of the ways I walk people through releasing fear on my audios.
I had to change the story I had associated with that event in my life. Have you ever heard anoyone say, ‘When you transcend your own experiences, you can learn and grow from them’? Well, that’s exactly what I did. At the time, I couldn’t have told you that, now I am able to articulate it.
I had a talk with myself about that moment in time. In my life now I am successful. I have had a great career in corporate America as a trainer and loved it so much I started my own company. My amazing hubby and I live in beautiful Colorado with our babies (Siberian Husky and Alaskan Malamute). I am blessed more today than any other day in my life and I feel that more and more every day. I had to talk to myself about that painful moment.
Now, if you have never had a conversation with yourself, you can start is something like this: ‘self, now listen up…’ And for those of you with experience having conversations like this, you already know that. 
Knowing what I know now, I know it will not be now or ever the case that I would go back to the situation and experience that was happening at the time I was 13 years old. I walked mself through all the reasons it was not going to happen and all the reasons that is probably wasn’t even true at that time. After that, I made my own story. And it was a better one then the default story I had played in my head for decades.
I hope my sharing with you my journey in releasing fear and anxiety it has helped you know that if you are experiencing either one or both right now, that you are not alone. I hope you are able to learn and grow from my experience and I look forward to hearing what you have to say, feel free to leave a comment.
If you are looking for the tools to take you further in your journey in the path of releasing fear and anxiety, please feel free to check out the audio exercises avaiable on the website at:
To our journey,
Val
